September 22nd 1982

posted in: Innocents Abroad | 0
Chris aloft

I still felt pretty depressed, yesterday’s incident preying on my mind.  I am liable to get the blackest of moods, as Val could testify, + this was one of those occasions.  What makes things worse is that I am pretty sure Doug regards me as just so much dead wood on the boat.  And it’s not just that Val can navigate when I can’t – it also seems to me that he assigns to her any responsible jobs which are going, while I am ignored or fobbed off.  It doesn’t do too much for the old self-esteem.

Doug got our clearance papers in the morning, + we moved off about midday.  The pulling up of the anchor + moving out all went pretty smoothly, + we were soon out in the ocean blue.  It was nice to see that Dick on Blue Moves was off about half an hour behind us – it’s nice to have company.  Dick only has a VHF tho’, no ham, so we’re not likely to be together for long – it’s a very big ocean.  It was a very rough ocean too, + after having grown accustomed to the comforts of shore for a couple of weeks it was quite a shock.  Val generally feels a bit queasy the first day or two out, but on this occasion even I, normally with stomach muscles of steel, was feeling distinctly odd, + I had to lie down for an hour or two during the afternoon.  When I awoke, I saw Doug chomping into mince, beans + taters.  For some reason he didn’t seem to think I wanted any.  I soon put that to rights by demolishing not only my share, but Val’s as well (she wasn’t eating.)  I felt quite the pig when I’d finished.  After two weeks’ freedom, watch-keeping was a bind, but I survived with the help of 2 new tapes (we swapped 2 with Ganesh.)

Well wasn’t I feeling sorry for myself! But, as I have said on a regular basis, it is an accurate reflection of how I felt at the time. And I am not sure that it was very sensible to be quite such a greedy-guts. But all I can do from this distance in time is shake my head sadly.

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